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Calc blows my mind >.

2006-04-19T00:27:34Z

One Word Survey:

YOU CAN ONLY TYPE ONE WORD!!!

1. Yourself: Eclectic
2. Your Lover: Jared
3. Your Hair: Brown
4. Your Mother: Frustrated
5. Your Father: Disappointed
6. Your Favorite Item: Books?
7. Your Dream Last Night: Ridiculous
8. Your Favorite Drink: Dew
9. Your Dream Home: Home (is where the heart is)
10. The Room You Are In: Bedroom
11. Your Pet: Stupid
12. How You Are Now: Worried
13. Who You Want to be in Ten Years: Me
14. What You Want to be in Ten Years: Happy
15. What You're Not: Unintelligent
16. Your Best Friend: Heather
17. One of Your Wish List Items: Books!
18. Your Gender: Female
19. The Last Thing You Did: Typed
20. What You Are Wearing: Socks
21. Your Favorite Weather: Rainy
22. Your Favorite Book: NO!
23. The Last Thing You Ate: Potato
24. Your Life: Awesome
25. Your Mood: Aight
26. Your favorite store: Target
27. Your favorite sport: Basketball
28. Favorite place: There
29. Who do you miss right now? Jared
30: Who did you get this survey from? Amanda

Rules:
1. You can only say YES or NO.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you / comments and asks!

Questions:
1. Taken a picture naked? No
2. Painted your room? Yes
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? No
4. Drove a car? Yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? Yes
6. Have a crush? Yes
7. Been dumped? No
8. Stole money from friend? No
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? No
10. Been in a fist fight? Yes
11. Snuck out of your house? Yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes
13. Been arrested? No
14. Made out with a stranger? No
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? Yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? No
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? Yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes
20. Seen someone die? No
21. Been on a plane? Yes
22. Kissed a picture? No
23. Slept in until 3PM? Yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? Yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yes
26. Made a snow angel? Yes
27. Played dress up? Yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? Yes
29. Been lonely? Yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? Yes
31. Been to a club? Yes
32. Felt an earthquake? No
33. Touched a snake? Yes
34. Ran a red light? Yes
35. Been suspended from school? No
36. Had detention? Yes
37. Been in a car accident? Yes
38. Hated the way you look? No
39. Witnessed a crime? Probably?
40. Pole danced? No
41. Been lost? Yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? Yes
43. Felt like dying? Yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? Yes
46. Sang karaoke? Yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? Yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Yes
50. Kissed in the rain? Yes
51. Sing in the shower? Yes
52. Made love in a park? No
53. Had a dream that you married someone? Yes
54. Glued your hand to something? Yes
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? No
57. Been a cheerleader? No
58. Sat on a roof top? Yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? No
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? Yes
61. Played chicken? No
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Yes
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? Yes
64. Broken a bone? No
65. Been easily amused? Yes
66. Laugh so hard you cry? Yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? Yes
68. Cheated on a test? Yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? Yes
70. Slept naked? Yes
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? Yes
73. Blacked out from drinking? Yes
74. Played a prank on someone? Yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? Yes
76. Made love to anything not human? No
77. Failed a class? Yes
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? No
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? Yes
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? No
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? Yes
82. Thrown strange objects? Yes
83. Felt like killing someone? No
84. Thought about running away? Yes
85. Ran away? Yes
86. Did drugs? No
87. Had detention and not attend it? No
89. Made a parent cry? Yes
90. Cried over someone? Yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? Yes
92. Dated someone more than once? Yes
93. Have a dog? Yes
94. Own an instrument? Yes
95. Been in a band? Yes
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No
97. Broken a cd? Yes
98. Shot a gun? No

Now I have to go study for my test tomorrow before there is no hope left....

kill_my_reality @ 2006-03-08T15:45:00

2006-03-08T20:52:29Z

I think that will all the studying I have done for this German mid-term, I am beginning to think in German. Not that I should be überrascht. Anywho, this morning I get up thinking that I can take my time since I don't need to be at the school for another hour...then my mom calls and says that my brother forgot his breakfast. They sell breakfast at the friggin school! How difficult is it to give him two bucks and send him to the cafeteria? Oh, but the food there tastes bad...NOT MY PROBLEM! So in order to keep my mother from biting my head off, I had to cook and bring Connor his breakfast. So much for the hour that I had to get ready...turned into fifteen minutes. >.< ARG.

Calc sux

2006-03-04T04:20:56Z

There are times when life looks at you funny, and says...what the hell were you thinking? Now is one of those times. I figured I could handle Calculus, even though I'm not so hot in math, because I aced College Algebra and I needed another math credit. I knew I should have stuck with Statistics >.< Calc is totally kicking my butt, but the problem is that I think I'm doing it right so I don't know what I'm doing wrong! T.T Either way, I really wish that next week would just hang back a little and give me some time to catch up on some stuff. German mid-term needs to stay away for a while, which of course it won't do. Jared has spring break next week so hopefully he will be around some, 'cept for the robotics competition and the fact that he still has to finish the program thing that he is working on. ::sigh:: I want to put life on fast forward and get through the next three or four years in an hour. Unfortunately, Father Time and myself don't usually see eye-to-eye.

kill_my_reality @ 2006-02-23T16:00:00

2006-02-24T21:02:17Z

Off to Mega-con! WooHoo! ^.^
Off to spend more money then I have on things that I don't need! Woo...wait a sec....T.T

Dentists Suck

2006-02-09T02:00:20Z

WooHoo...So I skipped German class so that I could take a breather tonight cause well...life is rather hectic. My brother is supposed to get braces this Friday, they told us on Monday that he needed his teeth cleaned before the appointment on Friday. We just switched dentists, so they hadn't done the whole "consultation" thing yet for any of us. I left class early today...and Heather didn't (>.< so I still had to wait...don't worry, I still love you Heather), so that I could take my brother to the stupid consultation thing so that hopefully they had an opening on Thursday for a cleaning. Everyone in the office assumes that I am the mother...now normally this wouldn't bother me cause one or two people have mentioned that I look like his mom before. But the ENTIRE office thought that I was his mother...do I really look like I'm old enough to have a 12 year old son? Jeez. Anywho, so he gets the needed X-rays and she tells us that he has a cavity and she has time to fill it. So instead of paying five bucks and leaving at 4:00, I end up paying 65 bucks and not leaving until sometime after 5. The things I do for my brother. They manage to set up a cleaning apointment for him tomorrow at 1:45...15 minutes after my class gets out...in MELBOURNE. Not happening. I set up the appointment anyway hoping that someone else can handle getting him there, cause unless I speed excessively and leave early (again) it's not gonna happen. I tell my mom, she can't get off. She suggests that I SKIP SCHOOL to take my brother to his dentist appointment. Not only that but she knows that this class is one of the toughest ones I have. >.< We argue about it and finally I ask why Rick can't take him. My mother says that Rick is a busy man. I get home later and ask him what his plans for tomorrow are...he is running errands until 1:00ish. Hmm...would it really be THAT difficult to get him to take my brother instead of skipping more class for this ordeal? ::sigh:: O.K. I'm ranted out...that felt good. Both of the adult figures in this house are not pleased with me tonight but Rick is taking Connor which means that I can see Jared tomorrow and it will all melt away. ^.^
With that said,
G'night.

Perfectionist? Me? ::laughs::

2006-02-06T20:40:20Z

Stole it from Amanda woo-hoo. ^.^

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have medium extroversion.
You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.
Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.
But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."

Conscientiousness:

You have high conscientiousness.
Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.
Most things in your life are organized and planned well.
But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.

Agreeableness:

You have high agreeableness.
You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.
Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.
You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.

Neuroticism:

You have medium neuroticism.
You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.
Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.
Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

kill_my_reality @ 2006-01-25T19:36:00

2006-01-27T00:39:14Z

WOOHOO! I got my internet up and running in my room! Now I don't have to sit in the living room when I want to check my email with my brother hovering over my shoulder the whole time. Happy happy happy! Anywho...now for WoW. Anazala, Alliance, Argent Dawn. Triple AAA that's me. ^.^

Papa

2006-01-26T04:22:47Z

Well, I skipped class on Monday so that I could work on homework for Tuesday, that and I couldn't hardly breathe good...minor problems. All in all, these past days have not been too bad except for the one thing that is always on my mind right now, Papa (my grandad). He was taken to the hospital in the middle of last week because of "digestive problems". The stupid doctor on duty took him off of the meds he was on to keep his blood from clotting in his veins so then there was all this fuss when the next doctor came in and they realized that he might end up with blood clots going INTO his heart. SO instead of putting him back on the meds because it was causing some problems, they did surgery somewhere in the vicinity of his heart (he has already has a quadruple bypass) and put some little filters in his veins so that if the blood clots do break off from wherever it is they are they won't continue their journey into his heart thereby killing him. This small surgery was done about two days ago. So that solved the problem of the blood clots which wasn't a problem till they took him off the blood thinning drugs. Now there is just the other matter of the "digestive problems" which turns out to be hemorrhoid problems. He was in surgery all day today to get them removed, and I'm sure that was pleasant...>.< So here I was worrying all day because no one would tell me WHY he was in the hospital and my mom comes to me after the fact and tells me that basically it was no big deal. So I think I will do my homework now so that there is one less thing to WORRY about. >.

kill_my_reality @ 2006-01-20T15:02:00

2006-01-21T20:11:51Z

Two weeks of classes down...15 1/2 left to go. T.T Anywho, went and saw The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe yesterday...for the fourth time. I realized that I didn't really remember the book very much so I started reading the series again last night and I'm almost done with The Magician's Nephew so then I can read The Lion...you know the rest. I've got crazy amounts of homework to do for Creative Writing and a few other classes but I'm avoiding it as you can see...it's not due till Thursday... I think that Jared is getting a group together to go see Underworld 2 (evolutions) tonight sometime so if you are interested call me, or better yet call him. ^.^ I'm so lazy. I guess that is pretty much it, cept that my mom is going to start the paperwork for a divorce (FINALLY) in the next few days, which means I should stay away from my dad cause he will be pissed. >.< Not like I don't tend to stay away from him normally. My WoW character is lvl 16! Woohoo! AND Heather finally got on at the same time I did so now I have bags of doom and I'm part of the awesome guild of doom too. That's all folks!

First day back...yay

2006-01-09T23:48:25Z

Just in case you forget my schedule...you can scroll down the page and see it or you can go to my entry on Dec. 1st because I am far to lazy to copy and paste...^.^ First day was today, it actually went really well. Turns out a kid from highschool is in my Comm class which should make it bearable. The lovable Courtney is in my Anthro course so that now I can pass notes around with her instead of Heather and bug Bob to no end. ::evil laughter:: And the Calc...well not worth mentioning except the teacher recognized me from her last semester class and, in an annoyingly high pitched voice, tells me how excited she is for this class! ...>.< Hopefully the writing class will provide interesting otherwise, this semester will be rather boring. T.T
Anywho, mom just announced din-din so I'm off.

I hate computers.

2006-01-07T23:41:33Z

Okay, so I have been having lots of computer problems lately, and by lately I mean in the past year. Finally I get proactive and decide to fix the problems. First one being that it won't turn on, so I did all the things that you are supposed to do before re-installing Windows, then I did it. Fixed the problem and it is now running fine. Next order of business, wireless card of doom. Ever since Rick set up his network at my mom's house I've been trying unsuccessfully to connect to it. During Christmas break I give in and call Dell. The problem is fixed. The battery in my laptop doesn't hold a charge, so Rick and I have Dell send us a new one and it works great. Now that I think that everything is going to be running just fine and dandy, my AC adapter stops working which means that all the other things that I fixed are worthless now because the battery only has 18 minutes of life left and after that I'm done until I can get another adapter. I'm just hoping that my three months of WoW time that I just bought don't go down the drain because of the friggin adapter problem. Luckily the computer is still under warranty so they should just send me a new one...right? >.

Random long quizzes

2006-01-07T20:38:17Z

if you were a kid raised in the 90s...
'X' the ones that apply to you!

[x] 1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word "SIKE!"
[x] 2. You watched the Pound Puppies
[x] 3. You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince Of Bel Air"
[ ] 4. You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish
[x] 5. You yearned to be part of the Baby-Sitters club
[ ] 6. You owned those little Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls
[x] 7. You know that "How Rude!" comes from Stephanie from "Full House"
[x] 8. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock"
[x] 9. If you had plastic streamers on your handle bars
[x] 10. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales"
[x] 11. You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons
[x] 12. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head!
[x] 13. You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
[x] 14. You played the game "MASH" (mansion, apartment, shack, house)
[x] 15. You wore a Jean Jacket and were proud of it.
[ ] 16. you had LA Gear
[ ] 17. You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in kindergarten
[x] 18. You remember reading "Tales of the Fourth Grade Nothing" and all the Ramona books
[x] 19. You know the profound meaning of "Wax on, wax off"
[x] 20. You wanted to be a Goonie
[x] 21. You ever wore flourescent clothing.
[x] 22. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his plastic surgery.
[x] 23. You have wondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf
[x] 24. You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school
[x] 25. You remember the craze then the banning of slap bracelets.
[ ] 26. You still get the urge to say "NOT" after every sentence.
[x] 27. You remember hyper-color t-shirts.
[ ] 28. Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band
[ ] 29. You thought She-Ra and He-Ra should hook up
[x] 30. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged friendship bracelets.
[x] 31. You owned a pair of jelly sandals.
[x] 32. After you saw "Pee-Wee's Big Adventure" you kept saying "I know you are but what am I"
[x] 33. You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up"
[x] 34. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates
[ ] 35. You got seriously injured on a Slip 'n' Slide
[x] 36. You had or attended a birthday party at Mcdonalds
[x] 37. You've gone through this occasionally saying "awwww"
[ ] 38. You remember the popples
[x] 39. " Don't worry, be happy"
[x] 40. You wore socks over tights.
[x] 41. You wore socks scrunched down.
[x] 42. "Miss Mary Mack, Mack, Mack, all dressed in black, black,black, "down by the riverside, hanky-pank, where the bullfrogs jump from bank to bank, i said a-e-i-o-u, bam-boo"
[x] 43. You remember boom boxes vs. cd players
[x] 44. You remember watching both "Gremlins" movies
[ ] 45. You knew what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare"
[x] 46. You remember watching "Rainbow Brite" and "My Little Ponies"
[ ] 47. You thought Doogie Houser was hot
[x] 48. You remember Alf, the little brown alien from Melmac
[x] 49. You remember New Kids on The Block when they were cool
[x] 50. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell"
[ ] 51. You know all the words to Bon Jovi
[x] 52. You played and or collected "Pogs"
[ ] 53. You used to pretend you could transform into a MIGHTY POWER RANGER.
[x] 54. You had at least one GigaPet and brought it everywhere
[x] 55. You were obsessed with your "Easy Bake Oven" and your "Lite-Brite"
[ ] 56. You watched the original transformers at 6 in the morning!
[x] 57. You weren't cool unless you owned at LEAST 6 Beanie Babies.

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In 2005....

[P E O P L E]
1. Best friend? Heather and Jenny
2. Boyfriend/girlfriend? Jared
3. Lost any friends? Some
4. Gained any friends? Yes
5. Met a new good friend? I'll consider Angela probably one of the best I've met this year

[P L A C E S]
1. Went out of the country? Not this year
2. Moved? No
3. New school? No
4.How many times on an airplane? One round trip I believe
5. Road trips? Tampa, Panama City more than a few times, Miami, Ft. Lauderdale

[Y O U]
1. Have you changed? A little, I've learned to appreciate people more.
2. New look? Let's see, hair has been short, shoulder-length, and really short. Clothes have been jeans and t-shirts and...jeans and t-shirts for the most part ^.^
3. Any new additions? Cartilage piercing on my left ear
4. Biggest conflict this year? Personal.
5. Most depressed time this year? January and February

[L O V E]
1. Did you fall in love? Realized an old love is closer to the truth.
2. Did you get heartbroken? Not this year
3. Who was your summer love? I worked for the summer, no time for love. ^.^
4. How many boyfriends/girlfriends this year? 2 but the first one was more of a getting over 2004. >.<;;
5. Favorite date? Do I have to pick a favorite?

[S E A S O N S]
1. Favorite Season? Winter, even if I was sick and stuff.
2. Least favorite season? Least favorite would probably fall under spring for me.
3. Good birthday? Umm...?
4. Any snow this year? Yes, but not around here
5. Highest temperature? Probably no more than 100, I think it was 98 high for this year.

[F I N A L Q U E S T I O N S :THIS YEAR HAVE Y0U]
-Snuck out? Nope
-Met a person who will change your life? Don't think so.
-Kept your resolution? I don't believe in resolutions.
-Got arrested? No
-Had a first something? Yes
-Did anything illegal? Nothing that I got caught for
-Had a crush? A crush? Not really.
-Liked someone who didn't like you? Don't think so.
-Lost a family member? Yes
-Got bad grades? Spring semester was not to great.
-Got suspended? No
-Moved states? No
-Got a myspace? Yes
-Started a band? Yeah, we are called Voldie and the Death Eaters...only not.
-Million dollars? No
-Done something you shouldn't have? Almost certainly
-Kept a secret? Yes
-Done something you totally regret? YES
-Changed your view on things? Quite a bit
-Did you like the year 2005? All in all it was a year of learning how to be me, and how can that be bad?
-Most memorable moments? Every moment in life is a memorable moment, in my opinion.
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The Innocent
You scored 84% Purity, 15% Sexual, 3% Kinky, and 79% Moral!

DescriptiYou're as pure as an angel! There is so much more to life out there. You should go out and experience it!

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 57% on Purity

You scored higher than 45% on Sexuality

You scored higher than 18% on Kinkiness

You scored higher than 81% on Morals

Link: The 1000 Point Purity Test written by darkman424 on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

WoW sucks out your soul...and mine. ^.^

2006-01-03T23:41:42Z

Started playing WoW again...almost done with the most recent update...it has only taken all friggin day! Turns out that the server I was playing on before was Stormrage, NOT Stonemaul...sorry Eric, maybe next time. So I started a new character on Stonemaul to play with you people, Sekra...level...not high enough to mention. Also playing on Argent Dawn to make my lovely Heather happy....::note the sarcasm:: ^.^ My character on that server is Anazala, once again level not high enough to mention. Internet is working even over at my mom's house however the signal is not strong enough to reach my room so if you IM me or speak to me on WoW, understand that there is probably a 12 year old boy standing at my shoulder. Anywho, off to eat din-din, smells are wafting my direction.

Q.O.T.D. - "I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be." ~Douglas Adams

kill_my_reality @ 2006-01-02T06:05:00

2006-01-02T23:14:12Z

I am finally back at home, home being my mother's house. Finally got away from my father and his lovely thoughts on how I'm not good enough and so on and so forth. I had only gotten half of the way unpacked when I got distracted with clearing out some stuff in my room and sending it off to goodwill. So now I have an extremely messy room that has less stuff in it than it did before...not that it looks that way. ^.^;; Oh yeah, New Year's Eve was fun, went to the Melting Pot with Jared, Connor, Dad, Dad's girlfriend, and her daughter. After that, they all went to a movie and me and Jared went to pick up a Nessa of DOOM! ^.^ ...and a Mike of not so much doom. Shot off some fireworks and went back for a few rounds of Rummy(i) and some sparkling white grape juice as the ball went down. All and all pretty decent, cept for the going home part ::shrug::. I'm going to go pay for my classes tomorrow and possibly get books if I have the money for them. Anywho, off to eat dinner with the fam, so this is Jay signing out.
(Gem call me tomorrow sometime so that we can figure out what to do with the remaining holiday.) ^.^

The year is 2267. Welcome to your DOOM! ^.^

2005-12-30T02:56:59Z

Finally got my wireless card working! Yay! Christmas was fun and stuff. I was in Panama City until the 26th and Jared was there until...a few days before that. Lots of fun. ^.^ Got some gift certificates and I feel the need to go shopping. ^.^;; Also got PHOTOSHOP woot woot! And The Original Series Star Trek Season Two...now if I can only get Season One and Three it will be good. ^.^ Hanging at my dad's house, not usually the ideal place to be, but his girlfriend and her daughter and my grandparents are in town so he can't lash out at me for no reason or it would make him look bad. >.< So off I go, so that my brother can play some Ragnarok on my comp (he is addicted now) and I can finish my puzzle about the life of Elvis. Later.

Quote Of The Day - These are the voyages of the starship Enterprise. It's five-year mission: to explore strange new worlds, to seek out new life and new civilizations.
To bodly go where no man has gone before. The year is 2267.

Happy Chrismahanakwanzaka!

2005-12-15T23:16:55Z

Finally, school is done until the 9th of January. Of course, I still have to study because I'm taking German 2 next semester and I don't remember anything from German 1 like a year ago. T.T Oh well, at least no more homework and tests until the 9th. I'm in the process of getting my mom's birthday present done (the 18th is her bday), shopping for people for Christmas, and readying myself to go to Panama City for the holidays. ^.^ I love Panama City, such nice people are there, like my family! Can't wait to see everyone up there and see my Dutch cousins of doooooom. You just can't say no to them, they are so cute. >.< Anywho, off to see if the van is fixed so that I can go see Jared at work later. ^.^

P.S. I brought my GPA up to a 2.9 this semester. Yay!

kill_my_reality @ 2005-12-10T03:57:00

2005-12-09T21:00:15Z

I've been kinda busy with exams and stuff so I will try to update once those are over next Tuesday; until then, I leave you with a song. ^.^

I don't have a perfect smile
maybe I'm just too shy
I'm not a beauty queen
on covers of magazines
that's something you can't deny
I got my own style

So what you see is what you get
A girl of no regrets
I'm not ideal - I'm quite upsurd
I'm just an imperfect girl
I rise above this perfect world
I'm just an imperfect, imperfect girl

I wouldn't be classed as cool
I have to bend the rules
Maybe I don't fit in
I didn't always win
that's something you can't deny
I'm happy with my own style

So what you see is what you get
A girl of no regrets
I'm not ideal - I'm quite upsurd
I'm just an imperfect girl
I rise above this perfect world
I'm just an imperfect, imperfect girl

It's all just make-believe
Ihe standards that we hear
It doesn't have to be
A perfect world, a perfect world

I'm not ideal - I'm quite upsurd
I'm just an imperfect girl
I rise above this perfect world
I'm just an imperfect, imperfect girl

I'm not ideal - I'm quite upsurd
I'm just an imperfect girl
I rise above this perfect world
I'm just an imperfect, imperfect girl

Crazy Long Survey of DOOOOM

2005-12-06T22:24:11Z

*Really Long Survey (over 200)*
What is your name?:	Kalen Nicol Stripling
Are you named after anyone?:	No
What's your screename?:	lazar456a
Would you name a child of yours after you?:	Not likely
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?:	Kalen Nicholas
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?:	Kalen works just fine for me thanks
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?:	Kayleen, Kaitlin, and Kayla are the most common, although I have gotten numerous Karens as well
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?:	Depends on what I became famous for I guess
Basics
Your gender::	Female
Straight/Gay/Bi::	Straight
Single?:	No ^.^
If not, do you want to be?:	Definately not
Birthdate::	7-3-86
Your age::	19
Age you act::	Depends on the age that is needed
Age you wish you were::	"No age is better than the age you are." (and that works for every year)
Your height::	5' 5"
Eye color::	Hazel
Happy with it?:	Sure
Hair color::	Naturally? Brown Currently? Black
Happy with it?:	I dye it all the time, but I don't dislike brown
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous::	Right
Your living arrangement::	Mom's house for the time being
Your family::	Mom (and significant other), Dad (and significant other and daughter), and Connor (brother of doom)
Have any pets?:	Three dogs (two of which are mine) and a cat
Whats your job?:	Full-time student and enjoying it
Piercings?:	Three
Tattoos?:	Nope, but thinking about it
Obsessions?:	::shrug::
Addictions?:	Chocolate
Do you speak another language?:	Working on it
Have a favorite quote?:	I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be. -Douglas Adams
Do you have a webpage?:	Nope
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?:	Possibly?
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?:	Yes
Do you have any secrets?:	Yes
Do you hate yourself?:	No
Do you like your handwriting?:	Not really, but it is legible
Do you have any bad habits?:	Nail-biter and procrastinator
What is the compliment you get from most people?:	It doesn't really matter
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?:	Hopefully a movie will never be made about my life but if it was it would be called "Your Mom's Bus"
What's your biggest fear?:	Zombies
Can you sing?:	Usually
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?:	No
Are you a loner?:	I've been called that
What are your #1 priorities in life?:	Life itself
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?:	Yes
Are you a daredevil?:	Not particularly
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?:	No
Are you passive or agressive?:	When a passive person is needed then yes, and when an agressive person is needed then yes
Do you have a journal?:	Um...this one
What is your greatest strength and weakness?:	Strength - open-mindedness/ Weakness - gullablity probably
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?:	Nothing, I am who I am
Do you think you are emotionally strong?:	No
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?:	Sure
Do you think life has been good so far?:	Life is life, you should not label it as good or bad it simply is
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?:	Everyone makes mistakes
What do you like the most about your body?:	My eyes
And least?:	My hands
Do you think you are good looking?:	Yes
Are you confident?:	Sometimes
What is the fictional character you are most like?:	One of the quiz things said Galadriel, but I'm not blond and I'm not an elf ::shrug::
Are you perceived wrongly?:	Probably by people who don't know me
Do You...
Smoke?:	No
Do drugs?:	No
Read the newspaper?:	No
Pray?:	Not usually
Go to church?:	No
Talk to strangers who IM you?:	Sure
Sleep with stuffed animals?:	Sometimes you really need that old teddy bear
Take walks in the rain?:	Yes
Talk to people even though you hate them?:	Yes
Drive?:	Yes
Like to drive fast?:	Depends
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?:	Yes
Hurt yourself?:	Not on purpose
Been out of the country?:	Yes, Holland is particularly nice this time of year (and any time of year in my opinion)
Eaten something that made other people sick?:	Probably
Been in love?:	Yes
Done drugs?:	No
Gone skinny dipping?:	Yes
Had a medical emergency?:	Yes
Had surgery?:	Yes
Ran away from home?:	Yes
Played strip poker?:	No
Gotten beaten up?:	No
Beaten someone up?:	No
Been picked on?:	Yes
Been on stage?:	No
Slept outdoors?:	Yes
Thought about suicide?:	Why take the easy way out?
Pulled an all nighter?:	Yes
If yes, what is your record?:	Somewhere around 74 hours
Gone one day without food?:	Yes
Talked on the phone all night?:	No
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?:	Yes
Slept all day?:	Yes
Killed someone?:	No
Made out with a stranger?:	No
Had sex with a stranger?:	No
Thought you're going crazy?:	Yes
Kissed the same sex?:	No
Done anything sexual with the same sex?:	No
Been betrayed?:	Yes
Had a dream that came true?:	No
Broken the law?:	Not anything large enough to really count, but technically, if you go two miles over the speed limit then you are breaking the law, whether you get caught or not
Met a famous person?:	My family was staying in the same hotel as one of those rappers with the numbers in their names
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?:	Not that I know of
On purpose?:	No
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?:	Yes
Stolen anything?:	I stole a cone off the side of the road (x3), and the wet floor sign from BCC (x2)
Been on radio/tv?:	No
Been in a mosh-pit?:	No
Had a nervous breakdown?:	Yes
Bungee jumped?:	No
Had a dream that kept coming back?:	Yes
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?:	With as many as there are it would be highly unlikely that there isn't
Miracles?:	Yes
Astrology?:	Sorta, but not really
Magic?:	Yes
God?:	Yes
Satan?:	No
Santa?:	Saint Nick? Yes, but not the big fat guy who climbs down your chimmeny
Ghosts?:	I prefer to term them lingering spirits, but whatever
Luck?:	Yes
Love at first sight?:	Yes
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?:	Yin and yang doesn't mean that really, it is more like opposites than enemies, night and day, cold and hot, winter and summer, and the like
Witches?:	Yes
Easter bunny?:	No
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?:	Yes
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?:	Yes
Do you wish on stars?:	Yes
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?:	No
Do you think God has a gender?:	No
Do you believe in organized religion?:	Not usually, but it has been used to good effects in history so I have hope
Where do you think we go when we die?:	To a place of rest (between rebirths and to stay)
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?:	Yes
Who is your best friend?:	Jenny
Who's the one person that knows most about you?:	Jenny
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?:	You may regret it, but move on and you will be better for it.
Your favourite inside joke?:	Your Mom's Bus
Thing you're picked on most about?:	Short or geeky
Who's your longest known friend?:	Jenny and Heather about 15 years each
Newest?:	Amanda
Shyest?:	I dislike these questions because it is all a matter of timing.
Funniest?:	" "
Sweetest?:	" "
Closest?:	" "
Weirdest?:	" "
Smartest?:	" "
Ditziest?:	" "
Friends you miss being close to the most?:	Jenny
Last person you talked to online?:	Jared
Who do you talk to most online?:	Jared
Who are you on the phone with most?:	Heather
Who do you trust most?:	Jenny, Heather, Jared
Who listens to your problems?:	" "
Who do you fight most with?:	In the history of our friendship, probably Heather
Who's the nicest?:	>.<
Who's the most outgoing?:	" "
Who's the best singer?:	" "
Who's on your shit-list?:	I don't have a shit-list personally
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?:	Yes
Who's your second family?:	Jenny's family
Do you always feel understood?:	Most of the time
Who's the loudest friend?:	....
Do you trust others easily?:	Depends on the vibes I get from them
Who's house were you last at?:	Heather's
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in::	Jared's
Do your friends know you?:	Yes
Friend that lives farthest away::	Jenny at the moment
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?:	No
What do you find romantic?:	Almost anything
Turn-on?:	A smart guy
Turn-off?:	Shower in a can -.-
First kiss?:	Alex
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?:	Depends on if we were really good friends or not
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going:	Yes
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out:	Yes
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv:	Yes
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?:	Yes
What is best about the opposite sex?:	Where do I start? ^.^
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?:	Where do I stop? ^.^
What's the last present someone gave you?:	Heather is giving me my Christmas card tonight...
Are you in love?:	Yes
Do you consider your significant other hot?:	Yes
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?:	Uh...
You wanted to kill?:	....
That you laughed at?:	My brother
That laughed at you?:	My brother
That turned you on?:	Jared
You went shopping with?:	Mom
That broke your heart?:	David
To disappoint you?:	Dad
To ask you out?:	Jared (sorta ^.^;;)
To make you cry?:	Dad
To brighten up your day?:	Jared
That you thought about?:	Lets see maybe the person I was just thinking about to answer the last question?
You saw a movie with?:	Jared
You talked to on the phone?:	Heather
You talked to through IM/ICQ?:	Jared
You saw?:	My brother
You lost?:	My dogs
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?:	To class in a bit
Will it be with your significant other?:	No
Or some random person?:	No
What are you wearing right now?:	Ninj4 sweater and jeans
Body part you're touching right now::	Um...none? Does the keyboard count as a bodypart?
What are you worried about right now?:	Exams
What book are you reading?:	Mists of Avalon
What's on your mousepad?:	Futurekids logo
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling::	Happy, stressed, worried (about afore mentioned exams), tired, pissed of (at my doggies)
Are you bored?:	Would I be doing this if I wasn't?
Are you tired?:	Umm...yes
Are you talking to anyone online?:	Yes
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?:	No
Are you lonely or content?:	Content
Are you listening to music?:	Yes
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Kirby Wave of Doom

2005-12-05T21:49:50Z

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Does that make anyone aside from me explode?

Class Schedule

2005-12-02T02:27:10Z

Monday (Cocoa)
Communications 2 - 9:25-10:40
Cultural Anthropology - 10:50-12:05
Essentials of Calculus - 12:15-1:30

Tuesday (Melbourne)
Creative Writing 1 - 12:15-1:30

Wednesday (Cocoa)
Communications 2 - 9:25-10:40
Cultural Anthropology - 10:50-12:05
Essentials of Calculus - 12:15-1:30
German 2 - 6:30-9:15

Thursday (Melbourne)
Creative Writing 1 - 12:15-1:30

Friday
Free Day ^.^

woot woot, for getting the classes that I wanted, namely Anthropology and German!

Precious Razorblade

2005-12-01T18:28:20Z

Finally finished my research paper that was due two days ago so now I have some free time. My astronomy class is really boring and I think I would probably die if Heather wasn't in the class with me to talk to. Since I don't usually pay attention in class, I had no idea what the teacher was talking about, but he mentioned something about the universe being flat...like 2D flat. Maybe it is just me, but how can I (a 3D person) live in a 2D universe? Interesting power outage the other day, most of Barton was out of power, no street lights and stuff, no fun. I just realized how close the end of the semester is when my religions teacher said we had the final next Wednesday, I'm so screwed. >.< Anywho, off to sleep in Comm class if I can manage it.
Quote of the Day: "11 Dimensions is a kick upside the head." -my astronomy teacher

Music is Good

2005-11-30T15:46:28Z

Instructions: List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your Livejournal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to

1. I Wear My Sunglasses At Night, Corey Hart
2. Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go, Wham!
3. Love is a Battlefield, Pat Benatar
4. 99 Luftballons, Nena
5. Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now, Starship
6. Don't You Want Me Baby, Human League
7. Man in the Mirror, Micheal Jackson (when he was black and male >.<)

TAG:
Heather

So I'm not listening to anything current...::shrug::

Random Crappyness.

2005-11-29T18:59:45Z

Ugh...I need an antidote and a vacation. Had a math test this morning which I think went pretty well, at least I hope it did after all the time I spent studying for it. T.T Must have got food poisening or something though because my body wishes to purge itself of...EVERYTHING. And John Steinbeck sucks, at least his stories do. >.< I never did like Grapes of Wrath either, it just didn't cut it in comparison to Waiting for Godot. Anywho, if anyone has any antidotes on them I'd sure appreciate you breaking one over my head, I'm all out. Off to more classes of doom...or something like that.

I <3 Starship

2005-11-24T02:13:00Z

Looking in your eyes I see a paradise
This world that I’ve found
Is too good to be true
Standing here beside you
Want so much to give you
This love in my heart that I’m feeling for you

Let ’em say we’re crazy, I don’t care about that
Put your hand in my hand baby
Don’t ever look back
Let the world around us just fall apart
Baby we can make it if we’re heart to heart

And we can build this dream together
Standing strong forever
Nothing’s gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers
We’ll still have each other
Nothing’s gonna stop us, nothing’s gonna stop us now

I’m so glad I found you
I’m not gonna lose you
Whatever it takes I will stay here with you
Take it to the good times
See it through the bad times
Whatever it takes is what I’m gonna do

Let ’em say we’re crazy, what do they know
Put your arms around me baby
Don’t ever let go
Let the world around us just fall apart
Baby we can make it if we’re heart to heart

And we can build this dream together
Standing strong forever
Nothing’s gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers
We’ll still have each other
Nothing’s gonna stop us, nothing’s gonna stop us

Ooh, all that I need is you
All that I ever need
And all that I want to do
Is hold you forever, ever and ever, hey

And we can build this dream together
Standing strong forever
Nothing’s gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers
We’ll still have each other
Nothing’s gonna stop us
Nothing’s gonna stop us, whoa
Nothing’s gonna stop us now, oh no

Hey baby, I know, hey baby, nothing’s gonna stop us
Hey baby, woo, nothing, hey baby
Nothing’s gonna stop us now yeah

Way too early for Christmas...

2005-11-21T19:04:15Z

Maybe it is just me, but is it not a little too early to be playing Christmas songs on the radio? Especially Cyndi Lauper Christmas songs?!? >.< If people start listening to Christmas music after Thanksgiving that's fine. Before Thanksgiving is just friggin ridiculous. Personally, I will not be listening to anything with a Christmas theme until DECEMBER 21 or so. I guess it is just that time of year again where I have to stop listening to the radio and listen to CD's. T.T No more Christmas music for the radio! ::sigh::

On another note, I've been sitting staring at the computer screen now for a few hours trying unsuccessfully to write a book commentary due this coming Wednesday. I've only written 300 of the required 2000 words that I have to write, but hey, at least I've gotten most of the unproductive time over with.

Went to a "Land worship", never been to one of those before. It was pretty nice. I had forgotten how generous truly religious people are. All the people that I had missed and not even realized that I missed, like Glen and Suzy. I may have to go to the church occasionally if for no other reason then to visit with those good people.

~The Hound (aka. me) (in reference to the Disney movie The Fox and the Hound)